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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
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Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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[18 May 2005|10:51pm] |
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Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
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[18 May 2005|10:30pm] |
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I feel better now. I'm talking to Corey right now and she doesn't seem mad or upset anymore. I just felt so bad earlier cause there was nothing to do. Hopefully this week will get better. It has been pretty boring. Graduation was boring as hell. That's pretty much all i did this week so far. Tomorrow I'll get a haircut and see Star Wars with my friends tomorrow night then go back to Natchitoches on friday to help Corey pack. Then she'll come back with me on Monday and spend the week with me. I have to get a drug test on tuesday so I can work at ROMCO agian. Then I start work on Monday the 30th of may. I'm just glad Corey isn't mad at me anymore.
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[18 May 2005|09:32pm] |
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I feel like I'm going to cry. I don't know what to do. I love Corey so much, but she seems so upset with me. I had to come home. I really have no money to my name to use. Nothing at all. I have 28 dollars on my debit card that I can't touch cause i need to keep money on it. Other than that I don't have anything. I don't know what I can do to make her happy. I feel so useless. I don't want to lose her over something as silly as this. I want to cry. So bad. I plan on going back to Natchitoches to be with her this weekend. If i didn't want to be with her I wouldn't go back. I wouldn't offer her to come stay the week with me and then bring her back and help her pack everything up. I don't know what to do. I just wanna make her happy, but I still have to keep my dad happy, too. He pays for everything for me. I couldn't handle the bills I have without him. I don't want to make either of them mad and I don't want to lose Corey. I'm so sad. I'm just going to go to bed.
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[02 May 2005|10:43am] |
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I watched hitchicker's guide to the galaxy this weekend! It was good. Not good as the book though. I just finished my T&T final and I'm about to hit the Logic final! AHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!
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[28 Apr 2005|08:05pm] |
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I just realized how cool the word Fucktard is. Yes I decided it's a proper noun. So fuck off you Fucktard. HA! Everyone was PWNED!!1!11! 31337!
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| Halt! |
[26 Apr 2005|08:24am] |
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I just want Ellie to know the previous post was not about her.
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[25 Apr 2005|07:49pm] |
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People need to mind their own business. You do one thing and they make it to be one big deal. I think it's because people have no life. GO LIVE YOUR OWN FUCKING LIFE THE WAY YOU WANT TO LIVE IT! I don't tell people to believe in God if they don't want to. I don't force anyone to do anything. So you care about me? Ok. Fine. I'm fine though. I'm sure there are more people who need worrying about than me. If I'm gonna die I'm gonna die. That's how this world works. Remember that caring about how I am and minding your own business on somethings are important. Oh if you're trying to help me how is gossiping all over the dorm in any way helpful. If that's how you're going to be and act I don't want you as a friend. I don't even know if you've ever read this journal or even know it exist. But if you do you can't GO FUCK YOURSELF until you say sorry for being a jackass.
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[19 Apr 2005|12:59pm] |
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Yesterday was the greatest day ever. Ever.
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[18 Apr 2005|07:27pm] |
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[17 Apr 2005|06:02pm] |
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This weekend could not of been better! Ever! I had the greatest time EVER! I feel like I'm going to die soon or something. Why is God letting me have such a good time? I mean even if it's outlined with some sorrow and I know it won't last forever (not nearly), but it's so great I want to cry. I've just never been so happy. I've never had the urge to see the next day. I diffently never wanted the last weeks of school to last forever. Oh well. Simo is helping me build a bad ass computer. If it all works out it will be awesome! I hope dad helps me buy it like he's been saying. It will be great! GREAT! Well I need to get some work done and daydream about someone beautiful. Le sigh.
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I feel good. Tonight was great! I hope tomorrow isn't bad. I hope to God it's better!
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[14 Apr 2005|01:46am] |
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I find it funny that I can be happy and sad at the same time. How is that fair. Life isn't fair. Damnit. Just once can't it be? Just once. Can't someone let it be fair.
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[13 Apr 2005|03:36am] |
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Well I figured out how to work the things and change everything back to my old settings almost. Life blows. Why can't I be happy? Why can someone take that away from me? Isn't that selfish? It wasn't going to be for long. Two weeks. How can someone take that from me. I was happy. The happiest I've ever been in my life. How can someone be so heartless. How?
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| Look who's back.... |
[11 Apr 2005|05:26am] |
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Hey, it's been awhile. I just have been busy. I had the best weekend that I ever had the whole year this weekend. It is also turning out to be the worst weekend also. Kinda werid. Sad also. I just wanted to say that I wanna start writing on here again, but I also wanna change my background. So if anyone out there knows how to do it please tell me, cause i don't remember how to change it all and the little comment pharses.
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| From the clouds shine light |
[26 Jan 2005|11:06pm] |
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Back. Yes I'm back at last. It's been forever, or so it seems. The new semester started and I'm not down in the slumps yet. I miss Britt still, but some wounds become scars that never really go away. BUT i'm not depressed yet this semester. Josh is here now. Not that that is a good thing. He tries to be better at me at everything for some reason. He even tries to get close with my friends and it appears try to become better friends than I am with them....? Craziness. That got him into some trouble that I won't get into. Let's just say Savanna and Allyson aren't too fond of him. Let's see the only thing I hate so far this semester other than Josh's attitude (which I always hated) is MATH! I HATE MATH. The other classes are cool. I guess. I met this really neat girl, but I don't want to say anything about that yet it may jinx anything. Who knows. I hope this semester is better than the last. I'm just glad to be back.
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[01 Dec 2004|02:06am] |
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Nothing gets better. Never. Of course not. Brittney's dead. How? It doesn't seem real. I just talk to her. She was trying to set me up with her friend. She wanted to see the spongebob movie. Now she never will. We will never finish our conversation. Never. I'll never see her again. I'll always remember how happy she always was. She loved LSU. She loved the present we got her. The LSU SEC football. How can she be gone? How? She didn't want to die, but she did. I have wanted to die, but I haven't. Why did God take someone who was ready for college. Someone who worked so hard to get in. Someone who wanted to live. I just don't understand.
In other news.....I really like this girl, but I don't know what I should do. I think I should just forget about it. I don't think she would like me anyway. Oh well.
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| Bad Week.... |
[26 Nov 2004|11:23pm] |
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I had a terrible week. I got sick. I got another C in journalism. I still haven't finished my time paper, timeline, or reading. Didn't read the golden ass. Got in a wreck but didn't die. Fought with my dad. Still sick. Didn't have a sharp object but was extremely upset so i tried to "bite" my wrist. It's swollowen. I would of went through but I stopped because I thought I had went through but it was my lip that was bleeding. Sigh. I also lost the chance with a girl cause I'm not a metalhead. Kill me.
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| KILL ME ALREADY |
[09 Nov 2004|12:42am] |
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I feel totally useless. Unimportant. Alone. I can't even talk to a girl who I think is cute, but I don't even think we're in the same league. Sigh.
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You know I always joke about making a device like on "Sliders" that I could use to escape this earth. I hate this earth. There has to be my ideal world out there somewhere. The world where I have the things I want in this world. I wish I could just see that world for a second. To see myself happy there. Even if it was for a second. Then I would leave. Go somewhere else. Somewhere that's better than this world. Traveling through worlds would be better than here. Loads better. I can almost see my ideal world though. Some say that this is the perfect world of all the possible earths and that we live in the best possible one. I'm sure they say the same thing on every other earth. Ideal. Sigh.
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